Mommy-ing Ain't Easy

Being a mom is the most rewarding job in the world. I am convinced of this. Holding my sweet babies and seeing them smile is the best gift from God. They lift my spirits when I am down and they make me laugh so much. They make me feel beautiful even when I am not. They also remind me that life is short. My life is short. I will someday be gone from this earth and I want them to remember me as the best mom there was. I want them to remember when I was patient with them and when I showed them grace. I want them to remember how I loved them more than anything in this world and would put everything aside for them when they needed me. I want them to remember a woman who introduced them to Jesus and taught them how to be a great man. A man that loved others and who had great character. I want to be the best mommy I can possibly be!

With that said, I am not perfect and fall short every single day. I lose my patience with them and I do not always drop everything for them when they need me. I get caught up in cleaning and social media. I sometimes yell when I should not. I get frustrated when Gideon is clingy in the mornings and I am trying to get dressed. I get upset when I change a dirty diaper to have to turn around and change another one a minute later. When both of them are crying I sometimes run into the bathroom (like sprint), shut the door and give myself a few minutes to reset. I am not the perfect mommy to them.

I look forward to what my mommy friends call “wine time”. After the boys are asleep I pour myself a large glass of red wine (because it’s really good for me), indulge in some dark chocolate (because it’s really good for me) and watch my shows on Hulu. Boy oh BOY how I look forward to wine time!

I really try to keep it together most days. Some days I just don’t. Some days are ROUGH. I am here to encourage all of my mommy friends to keep going! The struggle is REAL but the reward is even better than that struggle! Allow yourself a break (even if it is going to the bathroom and shutting the door).

Try not to be so hard on yourself. Every single mom has been where you are. Even if they seem to have it all together ( I get this often ) I promise you they do not. We are all just trying to survive most days. Enjoy the chaos! The beautiful chaos!

Keep on mommy-ing on! God designed us for this. He knows every thought inside of our heads. Turn over every struggle to Him and allow Him to work within you. I am learning when I get frustrated and overwhelmed to pray. Pray for patience and pray for His grace!